AboutI'm Sam & I'm a junior in college.
I’ve only had a glimpse. If I’m going to be realistic and leave my naivete behind, I have to accept that I’ve only had a tiny, shining sliver of the real world.
And I suck at it.
If my incapability exposes itself so blatantly in this kind of situation, what am I going to do when the really real world presents itself to me? How am I going to grow out of my clueless, childish shell? How can I have these overwhelming, intricate thoughts flooding my brain and only be able to spit out twisted, incompetent words? I want to show the world, I want to rip my brain out and yell “HERE! I promise I’m not a blubbering idiot, I just have particular issues with tasks like this, I can communicate and imagine and brainstorm but I suck at making lists and executing orders correctly and I just wish you would understand.”
I did this to challenge myself. My mantra is all about stepping outside of comfort zones, about leaving that safe place, but really, all I want right now is to crawl right on back to my safe place and maybe watch a Disney VHS or two.
My last final was Thursday, I had 2 and a half days home, I started work yesterday - 8-4 every single day - I have 2 online summer classes starting tomorrow.
Hello, mental and physical exhaustion, how are ya?